good spring days

This past weekend was General Conference, and it was so needed. There is something so comforting in knowing that we have leaders that are inspired by Heavenly Father, and that are direct messengers of His will. I sustain them always.

My dad got his hands on a couple tickets to Conference for Saturday afternoon that he passed on to me, so my soon-to-be-roommate-next-semester (whooo!) Mikelle and I went, which was absolutely great. Temple Square looks so gorgeous, with all the blossoms and green grass and tulips and pansies and it was just the best. And even though Salt Lake is a far cry from NYC, it still makes me itch for the city. Also, I just love the Salt Lake temple, and I’m kinda thinking it’s where I want to get married. Yes, practically everyone in the world gets married there, but it’s just so beautiful – inside and outside – and my parents were married there, and it just represents eternity in my mind. And yes to the most beautiful wedding pictures.

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Not pictured is an incredible bed of tulips and other colorful flowers behind us, and tree blossoms all around us, and green everywhere. It was fantastic, so use your imagination a bit. My apologies for those that are fortunate enough to follow me on Instagram, and also be my friend on Facebook, and get to see this picture for the third time. I was just lame and I didn’t take any other pictures.

Also, side note to appreciate the wonder of Café Rio. We went there after Conference, and it was the best. The sweet pork salad never ever disappoints.

Saturday evening around dusk I stepped downstairs to pay rent real quick, and the night just felt lovely, so I felt that a spontaneous walk was necessary. I just walked around Kiwanis park before it started getting too dark, but it was a good choice indeed. At that hour, the park was so calm and peaceful and quiet, and it almost felt like a summer evening (can we all just give a big ‘amen’ to the wonder of summer evenings?). And the air was just right for thinking, which was convenient.

Yeah, it was a good weekend. Yesterday I took a walk up to the temple in hopes of catching the sunset over Utah lake (I have a thing for sunsets lately) and doing some more thinking & writing. It was a bit too chilly and windy for it to be completely comfortable, and the wind made the air all grey with dust, so the sunset thing wasn’t too glamorous, but it was still good to sit by the temple for a bit. I’m going to miss the Provo temple for the four months that I’ll be off having adventures elsewhere.

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Since it’s coming up on the end of the year (3 WEEKS TILL I MOVE WHAT’S UP WITH THAT?), I’ve been doing some looking back, and appreciating. Appreciating my amazing roommates, and BYU, and Provo, and getting to live next to a mountain, and my ward, and having a park as a backyard, and I am just so grateful. It’s been a wonderful year. I’ve grown so much, and learned so much, and had so many experiences that I wouldn’t ever trade.

These last days are tinged with the bittersweet, since next year I’ll be moving to a new apartment, and only keeping 1/3 of my current roommates, and saying goodbye to the previously mentioned backyard park, and I’ll miss a lot of what life is now, but I know that there are good things to come {Martha’s Vineyard this summer, a.k.a. I’m going to be living on an island that is much closer to New York than I’ve been in the past three years, and no school for four months, and then there’s Brick Oven Pizza just down the street from our apartment in the fall, and granite countertops in said apartment, and a pink bathtub, and I’ll be living with some other amazing people}, so I’m stoked for the future.

Side note again, if you’re in the mood for some sap, I’ve been on a wedding video kick, and these are my two current favorites:

Also side note again, I’ve remembered that I actually really like blogging, so we’re gonna try to do this once a week or so, just to ease back into it. Cheers.

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a good day

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Sleeping in, and skipping my run, because my bed was entirely too comfortable this morning and half marathon training is making my legs tight like no other. I made an executive decision to stay inside and oh did it feel good.

Walking to class in the morning, where the emerging sunlight dusts the mountains. My favorite.

The rare privilege of walking slowly, and taking my time, and enjoying a moment to think.

Happy faces at work.

The oranges and reds and yellows that only fall seems to have absolutely perfect control over.

Leftover dorito casserole (look it up on Pinterest – it’s as good as it sounds).

Evening-geography-class-turned-field-trip-to-Rock-Canyon, in time to catch the gorgeous sunset. Sunsets have become my thing lately.

Oatmeal. And homemade hummus. Except not mixed together. Duh.

Learning that two people who are dear to me are now friends again, after months of separation. I love that is-this-really-and-truly-happening feeling, especially when yes, it really and truly is.

It’s been a good day.

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the excitement in a “now what?” phase

Have you ever found yourself in a “Now what?” phase? Where you’ve been anticipating something for so long, and moving toward something for so long, and then you get there, and then you’re just standing around in bewilderment. Okay, I take that back. Not bewilderment. You’re just having a moment where you’re not quite sure what’s next. And you’re plenty, plenty happy – that’s not the issue here – but you just feel like there should be something else large and important to be working toward. There should be something, right? Goals and all that fancy stuff are important in life, right? So I guess I’m on the hunt for a new goal, and I’m trying to do it in such a way that my will is aligned with Heavenly Father’s as well. I guess training for another half marathon is a decent thing to be working on, right? We’ll see how that goes! But even after that, I still feel like there should be something more. And there are huge, enormous life-goals, like marriage (go ahead, roll your eyes) and kids and all that stuff, but I can’t quite do much about that right now, now can I? I’m pretty sure you have to go on dates to get married (*cough cough hear that attractive BYU gentlemen???*). But anyway, we are NOT jumping to the marriage track just yet! Nope, nope, nope!

I just don’t quite like the feeling of sitting here, with not much anticipation for anything in the tangible future. At least the future that I have control over. So I’m just rambling ridiculously here, but I feel like I have to get up and go start doing something! New York sounds like a good idea, right? Although I kinda need a job for that to happen. Ha, maybe that’s what I should be anticipating! That’s the operation of the moment, because money is a good thing to have!

So that’s life! Thanks for humoring me and listening to my crazy thought-train. Maybe I’ll plan a trip to Europe for the summer or something fantastic like that. {And to my family reading this, which pretty much accounts for mostly everyone reading this, I pinkey promise I’m absolutely fine! Life is really quite fantastic! :)}

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when the gears fit together

Life is quite wonderful, at the moment. It’s unbelievable the sense of peace that comes when you know for certain that you are in exactly the right place, doing exactly the right thing, heading in exactly the right direction for you and your stage of life. It’s a bit of a tricky feeling to describe, but it feels as if the world and everything in it is set perfectly in place, with nothing at all out of line – as if the gears clicked perfectly into their spots and now they’re turning around and around as smooth as could be. It’s wonderful.

I moved into my little BYU apartment last Thursday, and ever since then everything has just felt fantastically right. After what seemed to be an undue amount of difficulties getting to where I am, everything has fallen into its right form and it feels amazing. A couple days ago I found myself alone, walking around in the gradually fading evening light, when campus was relatively free of people, and I just felt so unbelievably grateful to be where I am, and so unbelievably grateful for the sense of rightness that’s been prevalent in my mind the past five days or so. I’m so grateful for the opportunities that are before me, and also for the experiences that I’ve had to lead me up to this point. It’s crazy how things lead into each other, and I know for a fact that there is the chance for growth in everything. I’m a huge believer in everything happening for a reason, and it blows my mind to see little bits and pieces lining up and playing into each other.

It’s a good life. I say that all the time, but it’s really so true. And I hope that anyone who finds themself reading this is able to experience at some point {hopefully at multiple points} the feeling of everything being right in the world. It’s quite the feeling, indeed.

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a life update

Well, hi! It’s been a while, no? Um, like, months. Which is kind of pathetic, but life is what it is, and I swear I haven’t forgotten – really, I haven’t forgotten to blog at all – I’ve just kept on waiting for the perfect moment to write something, which isn’t a very good recipe for “regular blogging.” The perfect moments haven’t quite shown their faces, and the almost-perfect-moments could have been perfect if they hadn’t occurred multiple times late at night where I ended up choosing sleep for once in my life (you’re welcome, Mom and Dad).

But I’m back! Or maybe I’m not? I don’t know! I’m not promising anything, but I really shouldn’t have any obligation to promise anything, right? It’s my blog, and my documentation of my life and thoughts and such, so I’m inclined to let it ebb and flow as it will.

So at the moment, I’m just chilling cross-legged on my bed, drinking lemonade, listening to my Carlos Bertonatti Pandora station, and eating some sort of a muffin-thing I found in the freezer and some chocolates from Sweden that I’m realizing are a lot more on the dark chocolate side of life than I was expecting. And hoping to be able to type something of substance up into a blog post. Because I’ve really missed blogging, actually. I’ve missed my little space to spill my thoughts, and I’ve missed the connections I’ve made with other bloggers, and I’ve missed the feedback on my posts that give me the confidence that I’m at least doing a somewhat-decent job of writing in here. So we’ll see what happens!

So what’ve I been up to? Kind of a lot, actually. But only because it’s been three months…when you divide it up, my monthly or weekly happenings aren’t all that grand. But anyway! Be prepared for somewhat of a photo dump. But maybe that’s okay, since I’m usually so bad about posting photos here. So yeah! In the period of time that has elapsed between now and my last post, I’ve been……..

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^^^discovering magic on my runs. And thanks to the wonder of the iPhone 5s that is now in my life (whoooo!), I can actually get pictures of these little places. Isn’t this spot just gorgeous?

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^^^And this sunrise at the beginning of a 10-miler a few weeks ago was stunning as well. I wonder if I stopped being so lazy and actually got up to see the sunrise every morning if it would ever stop being so alluring? Any thoughts, friends that are more motivated than I am in the mornings?

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^^^drinking a plethora of icees. I’ve decided that I prefer these almost any day over a regular sno cone. Cherry mixed with pina colada…yum. That is all.

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^^^enjoying car moments with the younger siblings. I’m gonna miss those kids when I run off to school in a month or so.

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^^^driving at high speed across random deserts in the middle of eastern Oregon. Think dust-billowing-behind-you-like-a-car-commercial going on here.

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^^^reveling in breathtaking views at the top of Steens Mountain in aforesaid eastern Oregon. The picture doesn’t do it anything relatively close to justice. I’m convinced that this is one of the most random mountains in this corner of the United States (which I could be very wrong, since my travels have been pretty limited, relatively speaking). It’s this random, long mountain that rises up out of nowhere in the middle of dry, brown, eastern Oregon, that has some absolutely beautiful gorges, with a bizarre and random mix of pine trees, sagebrush, aspens, and long grasses. Weird, but so beautiful.

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^^^running a half marathon! This FINALLY happened a couple weeks ago! It was wonderful! I think I was either dehydrated or had heat exhaustion during half of the race because I got goosebumps and felt cold at about mile 6 (which is so not normal when you’ve been running for an hour already in 80-degree weather), but I’m stupid and kept running, and I didn’t die, so it’s all good. It feels amazing to have finally checked that goal off of the list! My stud little brother ran it too, along with my parents, so that was fun. Seth’s a beast though and beat me by a landslide, but I’m just glad I finished.

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^^^recharging spiritually. It’s been much-needed. Enough said.

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^^^planning the most epic gallery wall ever. I cannot tell you how excited I am to move into my apartment at the end of next month and decorate. If you check out my said Pinterest account, you’ll see countless photos of gallery wall inspiration. Maybe I’ll do a post sometime dedicated to the wonders of gallery walls.

Also…

…reading the optimistic, inspiring words of my friend Mallory. Her words are clear and inspiring, and the perfect thing to read when you need a lift.

…pinning everything. in. the. entire. world. Seriously. It’s miraculous. Go follow me, if you feel so inclined, and if you want some enjoyment in the areas of interior design, flawless outfits, poetic words, New York City, or romantic couples pictures. Or weddings, or flowy dresses, or little kids, or flowers, or really anything.

Altogether, though, the major theme of this summer has been transition. Or not quite transition yet. I feel like I’m in an awkward, in-between phase. I’m so unbelievably excited about the future, and life is nothing to complain about right now, but I just feel that I’m awkwardly sitting here waiting for school, and my apartment, and new people, and a fresh start to get here already. I really shouldn’t rush it though; as awkward as this life-phase is, it’s a phase nonetheless. There are lessons to learn and there is undoubtedly a purpose for a sitting phase – a purpose that I’m trying to explore as best I can instead of letting impatience take over. Maybe I’ll write something about all this eventually. Ha, we’ll see.

Well that’s about it for my little random photo dump. You can probably expect anywhere between 0 and 1 photos on whatever post I decide to do next, whenever that happens, per usual. I hope that everyone has a lovely day! To everyone reading this, thanks for humoring me in this life corner of the internet!

It’s a good life. Yep. It is a good, beautiful, magical life indeed.

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