on a wednesday

Hola world. It’s Wednesday. Wednesdays are my favorite, aside from Sundays and Fridays. Monday and Tuesday I have FHE, and class after work, so when Wednesday comes around and I don’t have anywhere I need to go in the evening it’s glorious. I get to come home and laze around a little, and go running at some point, and then I have the freedom to go to bed whenever I want to.

Today was a grey spring day. Spring is made up of those amazing days where the sky is blue and the blossoms are fairly exploding everywhere and the grass is green and the world is fresh. And then since spring is a season of contrasts, it’s only fair that you have your share of grey, slightly drizzly days like today. Which is totally fine…except when you make the great choice to leave the apartment without a jacket, because it’s April and April means no need for a jacket, right? Nope. Don’t fall victim to the lie that just because it’s April and the world is supposed to be warm you don’t need to bring a jacket.

For some spring in your life (at least the part of spring that I like best) these beauties have been living on our counter for the past few days, and I’m in love.

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Aaaaand then this is what it looked like outside today. At dusk, mind you, but still. Cheers to rain, and to running in the rain up a hill, which is actually quite an adventure.

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Also, random thoughts of the day:

-I’m blogging twice in less than a week? Whaaat?? Your mind may be blown, but I think the blogging fever might be coming back. Who knows. Mysteries are good every once in a while.

-gold sparkly shoes may look amazing, but when you have feet that are 1/4 size larger than your roommate and you decide to wear her gold sparkly shoes to class, bad things happen to your heels

-I love peanut butter

-reading blogs makes me just want to blog all day long {this is a bad idea when finals start in exactly a week}

-it’s a great thing to find your favorite pair of black pants hidden in your closet so you’re no longer consigned to wearing skirts to work every day

-maybe when I have children I’ll be better at taking pictures of life on a daily basis

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bits of life // saturday edition

Guys, today was a good day. I slept waaaaay in until 9:30, with no alarm to wake me up, which is a glorious thing indeed. In the world of Tessa Brynn, in order to be considered truly sleeping in, no alarm is allowed to be involved.

I laid in bed for a decently long while, contemplating making some pancakes for breakfast, but that turned out to require entirely too much time and effort for how hungry I was, so oatmeal happened instead. With chocolate chips. Because I’m getting slightly bored with the same oats-water (or milk)-peanut butter-sugar-cinnamon-vanilla-coconut combination, so why not throw in some chocolate chips to shake things up?

I then took myself and my chocolate oatmeal to our cozy living room, camped out on my favorite corner of our chocolate-brown couch, and proceeded to go through almost the entirety of Natalie Jean’s archives for the next couple hours. Or at least it took two hours to get to the part where she has her adorable baby, and then I figured I’d better do some studying, so I took a few breaks to make some flashcards and attempt to retain some information about world climate zones.

But in order to muster up the motivation to study, of course there had to be lipstick. And a tiny bit of mascara. And I even brushed my hair. But still pajamas, for sure.

Hunger struck again at some point, around 3 in the afternoon, so I reheated leftover pasta, grabbed my fuzzy blanket from it’s place of honor on my bed, concluded that I’d done enough school-related work for the moment, and went back to the blog. Because, priorities, obviously.

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^^^my view for pretty much the whole day

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^^^all the unmakeuped glory of someone who is enjoying doing nothing way too much (although I suppose there’s some leftover from yesterday). this was before the lipstick and mascara, obvi.

And then I went running at 5 (whoooo! points for setting foot outside the house!), figuring that a sunset run was much better anyway than a morning or afternoon run. Except I forgot that it kind of rained today, and was cloudy, so there was actually no sunset to enjoy on said run. But hey, Jack Frost did a little creeping down the mountains today, so that looked pretty neat. Or at least I thought so – looking into the distance made me remember that I still hadn’t put in my contacts yet, so maybe the un-blurred version of the mountain view wasn’t as great as the one that I saw. And it also got dark a lot faster than I was expecting, so that was slightly sketch, but I pretty much don’t worry about anything ever happening to me (right Caroline?), so it was all good.

Aaaaand some scenes from the run……

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^^^aren’t Utah mountains the best? They’re still one of my favorite parts about living here.

Also, I’m ready for fresh fruit to be a thing around here again. I’m seriously craving strawberries, and blueberries, and oranges (although I guess those are in season?), and raspberries.

Speaking of cravings, and going back to the extensive blog reading of the afternoon, the New York vibes are SO STRONG right now. Although Utah mountains are pretty cool. But really, does anyone want to take me back to New York? And maybe find me somewhere to live? And maybe a job? Although I think I could just wander around for a while without a job and enjoy myself just fine for a solid couple weeks. But seriously, just you watch out New York – I’m coming for you someday.

So now I’m just sitting here, trying to decide what I want to eat for dinner, wishing I had a smoothie, or maybe even just some bread would be stellar. I decided a month or so ago that I’m going to stop buying bread and actually make it myself instead (college kid budgeting and stuff), but I’ve been severely lacking in cooking motivation lately, so no loaves of homemade bread have happened yet. Ah, bread! Doesn’t that just sound divine!

On a random tangent…favorites from the past week:

– finishing up classes for the semester

-gentlemen that hold doors

-our decked-out-to-the-nines office at work

-food (because, duh…)

-strangely warm weather here in Provo (like, how is it 50 degrees and the middle of December?)

-dreams of future prospects

-sleep (because college, and finals)

-professors bearing testimony on the last day of class

-lipstick (always)

-blogs

-online shopping

-the temple in the morning, as well as the walk to and from the temple, where the thoughts really happen

And for more randomness, the leaves on campus looked cool last Saturday while I was walking home. The last bits of fall are slipping away, and I’m missing it just a little bit. Now if we could only get some snow around here…

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That’s about it for today! Highly productive, I assure you. Actually, it was wonderful to have a day without obligations, and I am grateful for the chance to relax. I’m sure next week I’ll wish I’d made better use of my time today, but for now it’s been great. And I hope that anyone reading this had quite the rad day as well!

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a life update

Well, hi! It’s been a while, no? Um, like, months. Which is kind of pathetic, but life is what it is, and I swear I haven’t forgotten – really, I haven’t forgotten to blog at all – I’ve just kept on waiting for the perfect moment to write something, which isn’t a very good recipe for “regular blogging.” The perfect moments haven’t quite shown their faces, and the almost-perfect-moments could have been perfect if they hadn’t occurred multiple times late at night where I ended up choosing sleep for once in my life (you’re welcome, Mom and Dad).

But I’m back! Or maybe I’m not? I don’t know! I’m not promising anything, but I really shouldn’t have any obligation to promise anything, right? It’s my blog, and my documentation of my life and thoughts and such, so I’m inclined to let it ebb and flow as it will.

So at the moment, I’m just chilling cross-legged on my bed, drinking lemonade, listening to my Carlos Bertonatti Pandora station, and eating some sort of a muffin-thing I found in the freezer and some chocolates from Sweden that I’m realizing are a lot more on the dark chocolate side of life than I was expecting. And hoping to be able to type something of substance up into a blog post. Because I’ve really missed blogging, actually. I’ve missed my little space to spill my thoughts, and I’ve missed the connections I’ve made with other bloggers, and I’ve missed the feedback on my posts that give me the confidence that I’m at least doing a somewhat-decent job of writing in here. So we’ll see what happens!

So what’ve I been up to? Kind of a lot, actually. But only because it’s been three months…when you divide it up, my monthly or weekly happenings aren’t all that grand. But anyway! Be prepared for somewhat of a photo dump. But maybe that’s okay, since I’m usually so bad about posting photos here. So yeah! In the period of time that has elapsed between now and my last post, I’ve been……..

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^^^discovering magic on my runs. And thanks to the wonder of the iPhone 5s that is now in my life (whoooo!), I can actually get pictures of these little places. Isn’t this spot just gorgeous?

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^^^And this sunrise at the beginning of a 10-miler a few weeks ago was stunning as well. I wonder if I stopped being so lazy and actually got up to see the sunrise every morning if it would ever stop being so alluring? Any thoughts, friends that are more motivated than I am in the mornings?

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^^^drinking a plethora of icees. I’ve decided that I prefer these almost any day over a regular sno cone. Cherry mixed with pina colada…yum. That is all.

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^^^enjoying car moments with the younger siblings. I’m gonna miss those kids when I run off to school in a month or so.

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^^^driving at high speed across random deserts in the middle of eastern Oregon. Think dust-billowing-behind-you-like-a-car-commercial going on here.

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^^^reveling in breathtaking views at the top of Steens Mountain in aforesaid eastern Oregon. The picture doesn’t do it anything relatively close to justice. I’m convinced that this is one of the most random mountains in this corner of the United States (which I could be very wrong, since my travels have been pretty limited, relatively speaking). It’s this random, long mountain that rises up out of nowhere in the middle of dry, brown, eastern Oregon, that has some absolutely beautiful gorges, with a bizarre and random mix of pine trees, sagebrush, aspens, and long grasses. Weird, but so beautiful.

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^^^running a half marathon! This FINALLY happened a couple weeks ago! It was wonderful! I think I was either dehydrated or had heat exhaustion during half of the race because I got goosebumps and felt cold at about mile 6 (which is so not normal when you’ve been running for an hour already in 80-degree weather), but I’m stupid and kept running, and I didn’t die, so it’s all good. It feels amazing to have finally checked that goal off of the list! My stud little brother ran it too, along with my parents, so that was fun. Seth’s a beast though and beat me by a landslide, but I’m just glad I finished.

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^^^recharging spiritually. It’s been much-needed. Enough said.

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^^^planning the most epic gallery wall ever. I cannot tell you how excited I am to move into my apartment at the end of next month and decorate. If you check out my said Pinterest account, you’ll see countless photos of gallery wall inspiration. Maybe I’ll do a post sometime dedicated to the wonders of gallery walls.

Also…

…reading the optimistic, inspiring words of my friend Mallory. Her words are clear and inspiring, and the perfect thing to read when you need a lift.

…pinning everything. in. the. entire. world. Seriously. It’s miraculous. Go follow me, if you feel so inclined, and if you want some enjoyment in the areas of interior design, flawless outfits, poetic words, New York City, or romantic couples pictures. Or weddings, or flowy dresses, or little kids, or flowers, or really anything.

Altogether, though, the major theme of this summer has been transition. Or not quite transition yet. I feel like I’m in an awkward, in-between phase. I’m so unbelievably excited about the future, and life is nothing to complain about right now, but I just feel that I’m awkwardly sitting here waiting for school, and my apartment, and new people, and a fresh start to get here already. I really shouldn’t rush it though; as awkward as this life-phase is, it’s a phase nonetheless. There are lessons to learn and there is undoubtedly a purpose for a sitting phase – a purpose that I’m trying to explore as best I can instead of letting impatience take over. Maybe I’ll write something about all this eventually. Ha, we’ll see.

Well that’s about it for my little random photo dump. You can probably expect anywhere between 0 and 1 photos on whatever post I decide to do next, whenever that happens, per usual. I hope that everyone has a lovely day! To everyone reading this, thanks for humoring me in this life corner of the internet!

It’s a good life. Yep. It is a good, beautiful, magical life indeed.

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a time for coping

Coping with the bad times is an art that will forever be imperfect. Sometimes life flies in with its swift broom and sweeps you right down before you know what’s happened to you. I believe that in times such as those, there is a moment to cry, and crumple, and look at the world from a lower position than you are used to. But I also believe that after that low moment, there is also a time and a place for a coping moment, a moment to be strong in the face of opposition.

I’m no expert at the art of coping, by any means, but I have found little tricks here and there along the way that make the hard moments considerably better.

When there is anxiety… I pray. And I write. I write around and around in circles, and by the time I’m done, the anxiety seems but a small piece of this overall wonderful experience of life. I search the pages of my well-loved set of scriptures for words of comfort and peace.

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When there is stress… I run. I run aimlessly and slowly, without a goal of speed or a long distance. I drink in the fresh air, and somehow the stress seems to calm down. Not disappear, but at least calm down to the point where I don’t feel like crying buckets and giving up anymore.

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I drink hot chocolate, sweet and rich. I sip it slowly and enjoy the experience of the warmth running down my throat, filling me and spreading that sensation of comfort throughout my body.

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I treat myself to the little bits of happiness that are Netflix, and playing beautiful music, and writing. Disney classics and countless episodes of “Say Yes to the Dress” are my favorites on weekend late-nights. Revisiting old favorites by Bach and Schubert on the piano is my release. And writing my heart out, often about a completely unrelated topic, does the trick with this thing we call stress, too.

When there is fear… I pray some more. And I trust. This is the tricky one, because fear is just there. You can’t get rid of it by finishing an essay, or taking a bubble bath. Fear is often a bit more deep-rooted than anxiety, and much more deep-rooted than stress. This is where the trust comes in. I hate feeling out of control, but when there is fear, that is my time to step back and let life happen. What is meant to be will happen, and it’s my trust and unending belief that everything will work out that keeps me going.

How do you deal with stress / anxiety / fear? 

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ducks, the cold, and a canal

today’s been a pretty decent day, if i may say so! it was just a nice day of easing back into the routine of normality after spending the weekend lazing around in unproductive bliss.

the weather around here has been interesting lately. today’s sky was a plain gray color, like an almost-blank canvas, waiting for something. the world has a feeling of unrest, or maybe it’s expectation – expectation for some amazing event yet to happen.

i took myself on a run this afternoon along a canal in a nearby park, which was quite enjoyable. the air was harsh and cold and biting, but that’s actually my running environment of preference. there were only a few other people out in the park today, so i just had the canal-abiding ducks to keep me company. during the course of my run i came to the excellent conclusion that ducks are actually very pretty creatures. they have a regal, majestic, intelligent sort of a look about them with their sleek, deep-toned feathers. maybe i should find a duck to be best friends with.

i feel like “canal” isn’t quite the right word for this particular collection of water that flows by the park. if you look at it right, it’s actually quite picturesque, in a raw, down-to-earth, honest sort of way. semi-large trees, now bare of leaves, have put down their roots here and there along the banks. ducks swim up and down, and different shrubs have also made their homes at the waterside. even now, in the wintertime, the varying shades of browns and grays and faint greens have beauty about them. it’s not the vibrant color and bursting life of spring and summer, but instead a peaceful, serene sort of beauty that only the hand of january can bring about.

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yes, it was as fun time indeed, communing with the ducks and the cold and the canal. a fun time indeed.